"you know what's sad?"
"a lot of things can be sad, right?"
"no i mean what's sad about ... this?!"
"whatever it is ... you're gonna pull through. always have, okay?"
"that's the thing - because i was always able to pull through, i am scared to tell people that i'm not okay."
"scared?"
"yes i'm scared that they will judge me for not able to keep it all together. or even worst ... they won't even believe that it could happen to me because to them ... i'm strong, get it? i'm scared that they will call me ... weak."
"(silent)"
"but i am not weak, i'm just very vulnerable right now. i've never felt so ... disturbed - mostly by my own thoughts. dude, i'm not doing so well. i feel like i'm ... drowning."
"but i know you, you'll pull through because you're a fighter!"
"no dude, you're wrong. i'm just a human ... i can't fight all the time."
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