Defeat.

I don't understand
the situation I am in.
Is this a punishment?
Was I arrogant? 

Too long I kept it all
together, and well.
Was I arrogant-
thinking that I was that strong?

I was keeping everyone
I love away from negativity...
I really fought hard.
Did they get into me instead? 

Ya Allah,
help me through this.
Help me understand why
am I falling apart.