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the first thing i thought when i woke up this morning. i am extremely anxious about this, and i don't know why. i need to keep calm, and have faith. they will call me, soon. insyaallah.
MY, babe, i understand now.
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i'm having different kind of dreams now when i sleep. they're very distinct from what i used to had. somehow a little motivational and creepy. like last night i was talking to a giant tree. he was asking me to climb onto him, but i was afraid. i don't climb trees, i said.
"then you won't get to see my cats", he said before disappearing. that to me was disturbing, but in a good way?
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tonight, just like the previous nights, i found myself desperately finding stuff to do because i can't sleep and i don't want to overthink stuff. so i did stuff.
i ended up sending three job applications via emails, and few others through jobstreet. i thought i was killing it, but looking back i think i just overdid it. god! nevermind, it is legit right?
oh by the way i was writing a cover letter in bahasa malaysia. damn that was hard! perkomputeran, and shit. gave up on translating the resume to BM though. just too much work, too much.
1 comment:
hey babe, your text that you landed in Kuching set me in a sad state. it's a realisation that things are different now.
the job scene, it will come. but to find a place you belong, a place that you want to belong, is harder. i really hope you'd find it.
over-thinking. i hope i could tell you to stop. but i'm the one over-doing it now.
it's a journey. it might feel less fun, less carefree, less... less...
write more often. i want to know how you're doing from across the pond.
misses and hugs.
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